Everything you’re experiencing, and that you’ve ever experienced, has happened perfectly. And the only way it ever could.
I know the truth of this, having seen it in the context of my own life. Seeing the perfection of the lessons I came to learn, and the journey through those into a world where I am no longer afraid of my experience. This is what I want for you too.
Of course I haven’t always seen things this way. I haven’t always had an unshakeable knowing of the truth of who I am. I haven’t always been able to welcome feelings in with open arms. But what a difference it makes to have a background knowing that:
“If it feels like this, I must be identifying with something that is not fundamentally who I am.”
This creates so much space and capacity to be with experiences that previously would have been glossed over, distracted from, or avoided.
If there was one quote to sum up all of the work that I do it would be this:
“If the only thing people learned was not to be afraid of their experience, that alone would change the world.” Syd Banks
So how did I come to here?
I’ve been coaching since 2009, starting in the corporate space using transactional coaching models before opening the doors of Wild Fig in 2014 and going deeper with psychology-based coaching for improving leadership and culture.
In 2017 I started to experience some challenges with relationships, and I saw I wasn’t calm with my kids like I was with my clients – what was going on with this? After all this psychological work, why was some of my behaviour still so un-emotionally-intelligent?
This led me in 2018 to Transcendental Meditation, a book about the essence of Buddhism, and then being coached by Piers Thurston. All of these were pointing me to, and opening me up to, there being something about me which was before psychology. Indeed, with Piers, I experienced a significant awakening and my mind was silent for the subsequent few months – it was amazing!
But, as often happens, the old conditioning came back in and so 2019 became the year of deep immersion and intensive coaching. Exploring The Three Principles, of Sydney Banks, and direct path nonduality. Having private and group coaching with Clare Dimond, joining various online courses, and consuming all the podcasts, articles and YouTube content I could lay my hands on. My favourites being Rupert Spira and Francis Lucille.
This continued through 2020. My understanding deepening and my conditioning lightening with each new opportunity – thanks to the perfection of life to bring the next thing to be seen and understood. I also engaged with Liberation Unleashed at this time. Being guided on their forum to the recognition that there is no separate self – I smiled for a good few days after this!
Then at the end of 2020, something shifted. I was ready to find my own voice, and I was done with talking about my conditioned responses. I had gathered so much from so many teachers and guides, and yes I’d had significant shifts in my experience, but it felt like I was missing an unshakable knowing of who I really am. And it felt like no amount of talking about my experience and conditioned patterns was going to make a difference at this point.
So at the beginning of 2021 I started receiving divine energy transmissions. This is when another directs light energy into your physical system. These particular transmissions were – like water in a basement – designed to get to all the nooks and crannies that language can’t get to. And to dissolve the belief in separation at the root. This was measured using an energetic scale (akin to that of David Hawkins), ultimately reaching 1000 in September 2021. And full awakening.
But was that the end? It was absolutely the end of the vast majority of contractions in the body. The absence of these made me realise how prevalent they’d been before. The degree of relaxation, flow and ease increased significantly, and the deepening of my knowing of our infinite, eternal shared being became increasingly apparent.
Since then, as was explained would be the case, the process has been one of unravelling and inclusion of all the remaining conditioned responses that the system can no longer hold onto. In the absence of the belief in separation there are now no hooks to keep the stories in place. So – on the rare occasions they are triggered – they come up, are seen, and disappear with such greater ease.
The degree of fear with these responses is now reduced to almost zero, so I am able to be with them, and allow them.
I continue to be supported by my network of coaches, guides and energy workers and I value all of them for being with me as I continue to deepen my awakening and integrate my enlightenment.
What does all this mean for your experience with me?
It means that I guide you on your path, and support you in both your awakening and enlightenment. I hold you in your emotional experience, because I am so grounded in mine. For me, transcending thoughts and feelings is not the goal of this work. It is a stepping stone. The goal for me is that you live fully in relationship with the human-ness of your experience, and with the world – all the while knowing deeply that your essential nature is the strong, unchanging ground of all of that.
Would you like that?
“You open the gates of the soul to let the dark flood of chaos flow into your order and meaning. If you marry the ordered to the chaos you produce the divine child, the supreme meaning beyond meaning and meaninglessness.” Jung, The Red Book
Before I go, lots of people wonder why I named the business Wild Fig.
Fundamentally it’s because I’ve always loved getting to the root cause and going straight to the heart of things. As I drove home from a meeting about the possibility of leaving corporate and going freelance, I started to think about business names. Hmm…root cause…and I like trees! I got home and discovered the Wild Fig has the deepest roots in the world – and so the name was born!
Is there anything else you’d like to know?
Book us a call if you think I might be the coach for you, and so you can ask your questions.
Deep Awakening to me is deeply knowing your essential nature, while living in the fullness of this human experience. Absent of fear.