I Didn’t Think My Purpose Would Matter Again

After my awakening I didn’t think I’d ever be interested in a conversation about purpose again, and yet…

When I began my spiritual exploration, I had a significant awakening and saw SO CLEARLY that ‘having a purpose’ was for the mind. That who we really are has zero need, interest or consideration for having a purpose, or for living out your purpose.

It suddenly looked like a whole big waste of time that people, the development-world over, were scurrying around trying to find their why (HT Simon Sinek) so that they could feel fulfilled and happy.

And, in that recognition, all ideas of purpose fell away.

I spent the next four years going deeper into the truth of who we really are, enlightening from the conditioning of what we’re not, and following the flow of whatever showed up to be done next. No grand purpose required. Simply a case of doing the next obvious thing to be done.

Then, this year, an interesting thing happened. It’s like the engine cut out. There hasn’t been an absence of activity, plenty has still happened in life and in my businesses, but there was a shift. There was no clarity behind the activity. There was no direction. No purpose.

Indeed there have been times of feeling like entirely retreating. Of feeling like I have nothing to say. And that nobody needs to hear anything anyway. That everything is happening exactly as it is, and how it needs to, and absolutely no intervention or discussion or activity is required.

Then…something shifted again. It was like the engine was ready to start again but there was no idea of how. With egoic willpower gone, any old tactics were impossible. It felt like the tides were turning and the will of life was preparing to take the helm.

And I had no idea what the ride would be like!

What showed up next was a move towards a couple of coaches, both with different styles and approaches, but both with an overall direction of supporting me with clarifying purpose.

Who knew that after that original awakening and recognition this would be a thing!

And yet it makes sense. The way it looks to me is that, after dropping deeply out of the human and into who we are before that, for so long, the human-ness was ready to return this year. I’ve seen that the awakening exploration was a great way to avoid Helen, by transcending her and all her apparent wrong-ness. And so this year has become the time to return to Helen. And return to purpose.

Now no longer being done to secure myself by knowing my why, but instead to clarify the natural expression of who I’m here to be and what I’m here to do.

And it’s been a delight!

As well as emotionally and energetically integrating so much about my Helen-ness this year, over the last month through these purpose conversations, I’ve come to clarify two things…

1. Wild Fig is here to emphasise the enlightenment aspects of our spiritual exploration. (While Thoughtful Raven beautifully right now emphasises awakening.)

2. My passion is to support people with resolving repeating patterns in their lives, for their enlightenment, and therefore enjoyment, of this human experience.

I love doing this, because I love helping people be their fully expressed selves. Lit up and full of energy and inspired action.

I love helping people come into alignment with who they’re here to be, while knowing who they really are.

And it makes sense. It’s exactly the journey I’ve been on, and continue to be on. It’s the threads that have underpinned all my working life. And, with this clarifying of purpose continuing, I have such exciting plans for the new year to support this resolution of repeating patterns! I can’t wait!

Much love, Helen

Do you want help with resolving repeating patterns and coming into greater alignment?

Book a call for us to meet. I have a number of ways to support you, and a conversation is the easiest way to find out what’s right for you, right now.

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